Even today, I am not exactly sure when everything ended.
I wanted to cry, feel anger, grief, to feel just like I used to. A whole life, denying myself, searching in silence for someone like me. A whole life, looking for an answer without finding it. I learned so many things. But I forgot the most essential thing. It was me, all along. I did everything you would have wanted. But I will never forgive myself for not revealing myself. For not at least giving you consolation knowing there is something else. But you deserve more. Today you deserve everything. You can't deny yourself. You can't deny yourself forever.